yeah, i'm pretty angry too.

all I said to you, all I did for you seems so silly to me now.

you've never been the kind of friend i've wanted or needed.
just like you've said, i can't change you or the decisions you make.

i'm the type of person that if i'm your friend, if i've ever loved you or cared about you, i will be there. 100%, however i can be, whenever you need me to be.
no matter what you've done to me, or how long it's been.
i guess i need to stop expecting those same people to be the same towards me.
because in the past year, it hasn't been true about one single person in my life.

this past weekend i went through the saddest, most profoundly devastating thing i've ever experienced in my life, and you weren't there, you couldn't see past whatever you're going through to realize i needed you more than i ever had.

you're intensely selfish in the worst way; you play it off as selflessness.
but you're not a martyer.

we're not good people, neither of us.
we're not good friends. we don't take responsbility.
you're no better than me. i'm no better than you.

the distinct difference between us, is that i've never tried to be anything but what i am. who i am, whatever or whoever that may be at any given time.
and i sincerly hope you figure out who you are and what you want.
but don't think for one second that i care anymore.
because if i never see you or hear from you again i will consider myself better off.
you will never hurt me again.