currently looking for:

- a really good girlfriend i can talk to.

job responsibilities:
- must have a unique and enthralling sense of humor.
- smart enough for me to take you and your opinions seriously.
- honest to the bone, even if it might hurt.
- enjoys random dance parties.
- loyal and trustworthy.
- dependable. no matter what, no matter the fight, i want to know, without a shadow of a doubt, that we're sticking it out.
- always up for an adventure.
- must enjoy long hours of endless chatter.
- classy and respectable.
- sarcastic.
- available for bitch sessions.
- an excellent sense of style.

i keep loosing my best friends.
so the application process will be stricter.
reapplying is always allowed.
*sigh*

yeah, i'm pretty angry too.

all I said to you, all I did for you seems so silly to me now.

you've never been the kind of friend i've wanted or needed.
just like you've said, i can't change you or the decisions you make.

i'm the type of person that if i'm your friend, if i've ever loved you or cared about you, i will be there. 100%, however i can be, whenever you need me to be.
no matter what you've done to me, or how long it's been.
i guess i need to stop expecting those same people to be the same towards me.
because in the past year, it hasn't been true about one single person in my life.

this past weekend i went through the saddest, most profoundly devastating thing i've ever experienced in my life, and you weren't there, you couldn't see past whatever you're going through to realize i needed you more than i ever had.

you're intensely selfish in the worst way; you play it off as selflessness.
but you're not a martyer.

we're not good people, neither of us.
we're not good friends. we don't take responsbility.
you're no better than me. i'm no better than you.

the distinct difference between us, is that i've never tried to be anything but what i am. who i am, whatever or whoever that may be at any given time.
and i sincerly hope you figure out who you are and what you want.
but don't think for one second that i care anymore.
because if i never see you or hear from you again i will consider myself better off.
you will never hurt me again.